Half Way Through The Journey....

Well little Bump we are half way through this journey that is pregnancy.

How am I feeling? Well still pretty good I must admit. My weight had only just risen, and not by much either. At the moment I am 70kgs. Only a 1kg increase in 2 months. I seem to be well over the tiredness I was feeling.

I am still getting a touch of sciatica every now and then too, although the pain seems to more intense and last a little longer each time.

Sometimes I feel so hungry and that I could eat everything in sight, and then other days all I can manage is a mouthful. Strange, huh.

I am still not craving anything yet, although I am craving to be able to feel you inside of me.

Oh yeah, I now have a pregnant bump. You can actually tell that Mummy is pregnant, and that you are there.

Daddy and I got to see on you again on Saturday morning (16th October, 2004) as Mummy had to have another scan, just to make sure everything was fine an that you were growing nice and strong.

You are such a little wriggle pot already, I can only wonder what you will be like when we bring you home.

It was funny, we could see you wriggling and squirming around inside, but I haven't been able to feel you from within yet. This is because you are sitting right up against Mummy's back. We are hoping that in time you will move more towards Mummy's tummy. But only time will tell.

Please move for Mummy little Bump, as she would feel very upset, and robbed of one of the most beautiful parts of pregnancy, being able to feel her little person from within.

Mummy and Daddy love you very much Bump, and look forward to being able to see you again, or maybe even feel you for the first time. Love you always Bump Mummy & Daddy

I Know Who You Are....

Ok, it is actually 17 weeks and 5 days...

Still feeling good, although think I have been getting a touch of sciatica through my left thigh. My weight has remained fairly stable, still only 68.5kgs. But am finding that my pants are starting to get a little uncomfortable around my thickened waist, and the lovely symptoms of a runny/blocked nose, not unlike hayfever and sinus. Ah, the little things they don't tell you about.

Had an Ob's appt on the 28th September, just a routine check up. No test results were back as yet. My Blood pressure was up a little from the first visit. First visit was 120/40, on the 28th it was 130/40 (I guess this could possibly be due to the stress of waiting on the Downs results). I am still not feeling pregnant, and am not looking pregnant (in my eyes) although my Ob says there is a slight bump there.

Bumps little heart was beating away so nicely in there. It felt good being able to hear that my baby, our baby was still with us.

In my last entry I wrote about having to have an amnio done as the bloods tests for Downs Syndrome came back extremely high.

After taking it easy for the 5 days following the test we recieved the best news any expectant parents could hope for on the 1st October, our baby showed no abnormalities what so ever.

We do however know the sex of our little prince/princess, but am not going to reveal it in this diary, as we never know who may be reading (sorry guys).

Well little Bump, what has been happening in the outside world, while you have been hiding within.

Mummy and Daddy have been having a little bit or work done around the house, but Mummy's favourite bit is her new garden that she gets in a couple of weeks time (17th Oct 2004). You are going to have the most gorgeous garden to play in when you are old enough, and the cutest picket fence for you to peer through.

You went to your first football game yesterday at Adelaide Oval, I don't know if you enjoyed it or not, but I know that Mummy and Daddy did. Daddy wants to buy you your own picket at Adelaide Oval.

Now that we know who you are we can start preparing for your arrival. Painting your little space, buying your nursery furniture, and buying the cutest of clothes. Wondering what sports or interests you are going to have, who you are going to look like. I really hope you have your Daddy's dark complexion and thick hair, although I would hope that there is a little of me in there somewhere.

Be good in there my little Bump although maybe you could let me know that your in there.

For now our little prince/princess I will say goodnight and let you know that Mummy and Daddy love you very much and can't wait to see you again when Mummy has more pictures taken of her tummy on the 16th Ocober.

Love and Tummy Rubs Mummy and Daddy

Life at 16 Weeks

Week 16 of this amazing journey.

How am I feeling in myself....pretty good actually.

My tiredness seems to be waning...my appetite is still reasonably healthy. I am finding that is isn't taking much to fill me up meal wise, but I am looking to eat more often. My weight has remained fairly stable at 67kgs. I guess the weight gain will come soon enough.

You know the 'if you don't hear from us' phone call....well I actually got that phone call on the 6th September, 2004.

As far as my baby being a downs baby went my aged related risk was 1 in 700 (which was really good), well my bloods come back today and with the scan I now have a 1 in 34 chance of carrying a downs baby.

Now I know that still mean I have a 97% chance of carrying a normal baby, but the fact that my OB has tentatively already made an appt for me scares the hell out of me...I had a feeling something wasn't quite right when I read the report with the scan...

What causes Down syndrome???

The events that cause Down syndrome occur before conception and lead to a fertilised egg with an abnormal number of chromosomes in each cell - 47 rather than the normal 46.

Well Wednesday (22nd September) afternoon we had another albeit brief encounter with this little person within...due to an increased risk of Bump having downs we decided to go ahead and have an Amnio down. This would confirm for us whether I was carrying a downs baby ot not, and would also allow us to find out the sex of our unborn. According to my OB, Julie everything went well, we just have about 6 - 7 days left to await results.

After the amnio was done the sonographer let us spend a little time with Bump. My, how he/she has grown and very inquisitive and still a wriggle worm.

It was actually very comforting to know the Bump is still around and kicking (although I have yet to experience those little 'flutter's). Only being 16 weeks I am still not feeling pregnant, so it was very precious to be able to see that our little Bump is ok.

In just over a week or so we will know if there a little leading lady or man joining us....CAN'T WAIT....and then again (everything going well) in the next 4 weeks will get to meet our little prince or princess again.

We Finally Meet

Week 12 of this miraculous journey, and sharing myself constantly with this little person within.

I still find myself looking for Chicken Baguettes. Although last night I just had to have a Cheeseburger from McDonalds. Some night my excursions to the toilet are worse than others, which can get quite frustrating but I guess it is all part and parcel of bringing this new little person into our lives.

What has happened in Mummy, Daddy & Bump's life this week....

Mmmmm....Mummy is feeling very much like and old lady at the moment, but I say this only in respect to the time I go to bed. Bed time for me now seems to be 8:00 - 8:30 pm. Daddy thinks this is weird, until Mummy explained to him that of other girls she knows are going to bed at the same time as their bodies are going through a lot at the moment to produce this wonderful little live within....Daddy know thinks Mummy is a bit more normal....poor Daddy he sits up on his own til his bedtime.

On Wednesday (25-08-04) night we took you to visit your new Child Care Centre, the place that you will visit everyday (while Mummy and Daddy sadly have to go to work, to always make sure you have nice things and want for nothing) and learn and grow and make so many new friends. Mummy and Daddy were really impressed with what they saw...new gardens, new toys, and really nice people that I know you are going to come to like to.

The most special part of the week for Mummy and Daddy was yesterday morning (28-08-04) when we got to meet you from within for the very 1st time.

OMG I think it is only just starting to really hit me as I write this, you are real, you are in there, although Mummy can't feel you yet. 10 tiny fingers, 10 tiny toes and the cutest little button nose (just like Mummy's) and you are only 6cm long, with the funniest little froggy legs...

We think you are going to be a little devil, which makes use think you are going to take after your Mummy. You are such an active little thing, we can see you being a little wriggle worm when we bring you home. You wouldn't lay still for the ultrasound yesterday. The doctor was just wanting to make sure you were ok, but you were intent of moving around on her all the time. Mummy couldn't help but laugh.

Daddy was so over awed at being able to meet you too....

We gave Grandma and Grandpa their very first photo of you yesterday and they were so proud. Grandpa more so, that his little girl was now carrying a special little person of her own.

You meet your Uncle Mick for the first time yesterday too, and he was very excited to be taking photo of his new little niece/nephew back home to your Aunty Cess.

Don't worry little Bump, you get to meet your Aunty Cess in just a few months when Grandma, Grandpa, Mummy and Daddy take you on your first holiday to Queensland (that is where Uncle Mick and Aunty Cess live), to share Christmas with you Aunty and Uncle and they celebrate their first Chistmas as Husband and Wife and also the buying of their first home.

Well our little Bump within....Mummy and Daddy are so happy to have finally met you, and we hope that you love us as much as we already love you...our precious little prince/princess...Mummy has an idea what you are, but wants to wait a little longer before she says anything. Can't wait to see you again in 8 weeks.

Sending all our love within, Mummy, Daddy and Boofy

Life at 11 Weeks

Wow 11 weeks of having this little life growing and developing inside....it seems so long ago that we found out your were now part of our lives.....

It is a weird feeling, knowing your pregnant, but not really feeling any different, apart from a few little symptoms, it almost doesn't feel real, more surreal I guess....until that first time I get to meet our baby via ultrasound....

I am not feeling as tired as I have been, although there are still some days I feel really flat (especially at the moment with Michael being off his feet)...my boobs have stopped hurting for now, but am waiting for the next growth spurt.

My many nightly excursions to the toilet seem to be settling a little to at the moment, but I know as Bump gets bigger those excursions will become more frequent.

The one food I seem to be wanting a lot of at the moment is Chicken, which can't be a bad thing. It could be a lot worse I guess, like McDonalds and Chocolate cake. Although I am finding that some foods are taking days to find their way out of my system. (if you know what I mean), which seems to find me feeling rather bloated and uncomfortable every couple of days. Elevit = constipation, Panadiene (in pregnancy) = constipation, Pregnancy = constipation. Mmmm it is one of those things they don't warn you about....

Hello little 'Bump'...that is our little pet name we have given you, so much cuter that 'it' or 'the baby'....so we call you 'Bump' although you are not an outwardly visible bump yet, you are still our 'Bump'...

Well our little one, it has been a little while since I have written to you, so I thought I had better sit down and say hello.....

What has been happening with Mummy and Daddy since I last wrote?

You finally got to meet your Godmother Jodi and Godfather Al and their little brood, Cody, Jake and Little Al on the 24th. Mummy and Daddy went to down to watch the Footy (you WILL be a Crows supporter) with them, as we try to do regularly....Auntie Jo has one other Godchild, but you will be Uncle Al's first....

Mmmm...I thought you were going to curse Mummy with the dreaded Mr. Morning Sickness....

You certainly didn't like what I had for breakfast on the 26th July, but I was a big brave Mummy (getting practice in, at being brave for when you fall over and hurt yourself or are ill) and went to work feeling bad all day. I got home from work and went straight to bed....was feeling very jitter and cold. I couldn't warm not matter how hard I tried. You're Daddy was so concerned....

The next morning (Tuesday 27th) wasn't much better....again you refused to enjoy the breakast that I shared with you. (Unappreciative child. You will learn early on to eat what is put in front of you....). I was left feeling so weak and tired, that I couldn't face another day at work....so I stayed in bed.

But you know what 'Bump'? For those few days I was blaming you, I don't think it was your fault at all....I think it was a 48 hour bug. Well at least that I what I am saying as I have been fine since....so I am sorry for blaming you for making me sick, can you forgive Mummy?

You recieved some gorgeous flowers the day I went back to work from your Uncle Mick & Auntie Cess, who are both very happy for Mummy and Daddy and are looking forward to meeting you.....

Even though we are yet to do your room up yet, you spent your first two nights (13th/14th August) in your own room (with Mummy of course) and it wasn't scary at all....You had a special friend on the bed both nights too. Dee (Mummy and Daddy's dog) slept next to Mummy and you and kept us company.

Poor Daddy got two spend those two nights on his own in Mummy and Daddy' bed, with no one to keep him company, as he needed a little more room than normal to sleep. Daddy had a very sore ankle and needed to have it fixed so that when you get bigger he could run around and play with you, chase you with his ankle hurting...

Today, Daddy and I had our first appointment with the doctor that is going to be looking after Mummy and you until I bring you home from Hospital. Her name is Julie and she seem really nice....She checked Mummy's blood pressure, heart beat and even weighed me.....69 kilo's. We go to see her again in 6 weeks. So in 6 weeks time, Mummy and Daddy may just get to put a little face to your name when we have our first ultrasound.

Next Saturday (28th August) Mummy is having a scan done on her belly and a blood test done just to check that you are ok and developing as you should, and not sick or likely to get sick....

If we meet then, or we hear your tiny heart beat for the first time Mummy and Daddy will be so happy.....if not we will see you in 6 weeks....

Til then little Bump, Mummy, Daddy & Boofy (Dee) love you very much...

Dreams Do Come True

Here were are 20 days after ovulation and I took a HPT yesterday morning. It was a BFP....

So it seems my little one was actaully sharing my thoughts with me from within and I just didn't know it, bloody little devil....oh well just like his/her mother...

Good evening my little prince/princess, wow what can I say...yesterday morning at 4:30am (3rd July 2004) Mummy woke Daddy up with the nicest surprise he could ever hope for....a little blue positive (+) sign on her Home Pregnancy Test....

Your Daddy was so happy, while I think Mummy couldn't quite believe it. Although I had deeply wondered if the changes that were starting to take place in my body was actually you making your presence felt, But believe me nobody wants you more than I do....than we do....

I haven't even given birth to you yet and already you are wearing me out each day. You are making me want to go 'wees' all the time, (my god what is it going to be like as you get bigger) and my boobs are getting sorer as you get bigger...Stop It!

There were some very special people in Mummy and Daddy's lives that were eagerly awaiting the outcome of Mummy's little test. Your future God Aunties Shaz and Al were over the moon, and I think your God Uncle Brent was quitely stoked aswell. They were going to have very special little person in their lives.

Your future God Mother, Auntie Jo was screaming out to world at the top of her lungs 'We're having a baby, Mummy and I (Jodi) are having a baby, she was so excited that your God Father, Uncle Al had to remind her that Daddy had a very big part in you now being part of our lives....

Your Nanna and Pop were ecstatic when they heard the news at 7:30 Saturday morning...they have been waiting so long for Mummy to finally have a special little person of her own, and when they met your Daddy, they knew he would be the one that would share Mummy's dream.

Nanna Douthie was also very pleased that you are going to sharing our lives...although she doesn't live close by it doesn't mean that she loves you any less....and I know the first time she meets you she will fall in love with you...

Your Uncle Mick and Auntie Cess have yet to be told the most wonderful news, but I know that they are going to be so happy, and love you just as much as we do....

You had your first visitors yesterday morning and recieved your first present from Nanna and Pop...me thinks you are going to one spoilt little person. You have been given a little bib with Baby Taz on it and some face washers. Quite fitting I think....a little devil bib, for Mummy and Daddy's little Devil.

I think you are going to be a little socialite. You attended your first dinner party last night. This is where you met your God Auntie Shaz, and your God Auntie Al and God Uncle Brent....your Auntie Shaz bought 'us' our first present. A gorgeous little diary for Mummy and Daddy to share with you...and record of you journey, how you came to be and when you came into our lives, until the first time we wave you off to school.

Although you are not old enough just yet to comprehend or understand what I am writing, but when you are old enough Mummy and Daddy are going to share this with you too....

But for now I will keep my thoughts, feelings and experiences right here, so I know where they are and I don't loose them. I don't want to forget anything that our new journey is going to throw at us or lets us experience....

I am getting these excited little butterflies at the moment ( as I am writing this) at the thought of bringing you into the world, our lives and our home in 9 months time...

Til then our little Prince/Princess I will keep you protected within....

Love Mummy & Daddy xxooxxoo

First grandchild for Nanna & Pop Wright and Nanna Douthie and first Neice/Nephew for your Uncle Mick & Auntie Cess and Uncle Paul..

The Waiting Game Begins....

To our yet to be conceived little Prince/Princess (or maybe you are nestled away safely within sharing my thoughts and I just don't know it yet)...

Mummy and Daddy want you to know that we are doing everything possible to bring you into our lives....our special little evenings (13th/15th) filled with so much love where everything was focused on creating you have now passed..the wait begins.

Today sees us with only 3 more sleeps before I HPT (and hope that your Auntie Flo doesn't come for a holiday)...it has been such an anxious 2 week for me, I think it would only get worse the more cycles you had to test...although Daddy is taking a wait and see approach...

I am getting impatient and wanting to test NOW! But I know all good things come to those who wait...

Love Mummy and Daddy

ONE DAY MY PRINCE/PRINCESS WILL COME....

A Diary to my Unborn

Wow, my first diary entry....

For those who don't know me, I'm Tanya (33 1/2). I met my now DH, Michael (30) 3 1/2 years ago.

Together we bought our first home in January 02, got engaged in February 02 and committed ourselves to each in September 03. We have been married now for 8 months.
We are now ready for and feel the time has now come in both our lives to bring a special little person into our lives, be it a little prince or princess. We want to create our own little dynasty....

So as of last night (Saturday 29/05/2004) we are contraceptive free....WOOHOO. I am due for AF's on Tuesday 1st June(spotting)/Wednesday 2nd June(Red)....which will make that special little point in time the 12th, 13th, 14th, 15th June...

I actually can't believe that I am no longer on it after 12 years. I get butterflies just thinking about it, excited butterflies though, and Michael has been counting down the days since we had decided I would come off it.

I want to keep this diary for you, our precious little (yet to be concieved) Prince/Princess, to let you know how just how much Mummy and Daddy love you and look forward to making you a part of our lives for 9 months and then finally getting to meet you and hold you in our arms......

Til then our Prince/Princess.....

All Our Love Mummy & Daddy